Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
Welcome to my serenade!
Only fifteen years old!
Why am I falling down so badly in life?
Always horny and nervous and washing myself and failing all my classes.
Want my thoughts to stop racing and intruding.
Want my thoughts to stop.
Talking about horrendous car accidents and vicious beatings and plenty of sodomy.
Visions of awful dismemberments and whatnot.
Can’t hug and kiss my parents anymore because, if I do, they’ll die.
Very worried I’m gay.
Can’t talk to anyone.
Don’t want to get in trouble.
Mom and dad are old hippies who don’t believe in psychotropic medications.
Rest of the world––popular music, Jewish holidays, the global economy––just crashes me by.
But at the same time, I’m thinking that, if I was God, things would be easier for everybody?
Myles Zavelo's writing has appeared or is forthcoming in the following publications: The Alaska Quarterly Review, The Quarterless Review, Resurrection Mag, Nauseated Drive, Olney Magazine, Recliner Mag!, The Bear Creek Gazette, Young Mag, Ligeia Magazine, Spectra Poets, Blue Arrangements, Forever Magazine, The Harvard Advocate, Expat Press, Apocalypse Confidential, Misery Tourism, Fugitives & Futurists, New York Tyrant Magazine, The Southampton Review, Tragickal, Maudlin House, Surfaces, SELFFUCK, The Drunken Canal, Silent Auctions Magazine, Animal Blood Magazine, Broad Street Magazine, Allegory Ridge, The Cobalt Review, Waxing and Waning, Ginosko Literary Journal, Underwood Press, Literary Bennington, 34THPARALLEL MAGAZINE, Carcosa Magazine, Chaleur Magazine, Glimmer Train, Reflections, The Official Catalog of the Library of Potential Literature, New York Magazine, JONAH Magazine, and Hey, I'm Alive Magazine. Photo by Meiying Ng (Unsplash).